I didn't find myself by following others... I found myself by finally listening.

My Rebirth

I didn't always feel connected to myself.

I began my fitness journey in my 20s. I was the "chunky girl" growing up, and at my heaviest I reached 205 pounds.

I remember walking into a women's gym, looking for guidance...and instead of being supported, I was put down.

That moment stayed with me even to this day.

So I went home...and I started on my own.

For years, I worked out alone. I cut things out, tried to stay disciplined, had my off days like everyone does...but I was also starving myself...

I did lose the weight-nearly-50 pounds-but I didn't gain what I truly needed.

I didn't gain understanding...

I didn't gain connection.

I was made fun of when I was overweight... and I was made fun of when I started losing it.

That's when something clicked for me.

It was never about my body.

People will project no matter what you do. If you change-they question it. If you stay the same-the judge it.

And if you're not grounded in yourself.... you'll spend you whole life trying to fit into something that was never meant for you.

Over time, life began to take over. My mind was constantly running-filled with self-doubt, outside opinions, and the weight of everything I had been told i should be.

I allowed other people to dictate how I should feel... how I should live...what I should do with my own body.

And slowly lost myself...

For over a decade, I lived in that cycle. Doctors, advice, quick fixes-none of it ever truly addressed what was going on within me.

Until 2020.

Something in me started to speak,

Not loudly.. but consistently.

A quiet pull that kept saying: "PAY ATTENTION, THERE"S MORE"

I started slowly. I changed my habits. I stepped away from things that weren't serving me.

But I was still searching.. still trying to figure out which direction was truly mine.

When I returned to the gym, I made the same mistake again- I listened to everyone else. I was told what to take, what to do, how to train... and my body paid the price.

I became sick. My hormones were completely out of balance. I wasn't nourishing myself. And for the first time, I had to face the truth: Something wasn't right.

That's when everything changed.

I sat in stillness...and I finally listened. From that point on, my path became different.

I invested in knowledge. I explored healing. I became a Reiki Master. I studied sound therapy and energy work. I got certified in tunning forks. But more than anything...

I began to understand myself.

Through meditation, I started to see my patterns- in my life, my relationships, my workouts, even my belief's'

AND IT WASN'T EASY

Looking within required honesty. It required letting go of what I had been taught...and being willing to see what actually true for me. I began to release what no longer aligned..

I FREED MYSELF.

I stopped forcing my body. I started listing to it. I learned how my hormones affected me. What worked for me-not for everyone else.

My confidence didn't come from appearance...it came from connection. I began to feel my body in a way I never had before.

A level of awareness that words can't fully explain-but once you feel it, you know. And from that place.. I stopped denying myself. I started walking with myself-not against myself.

Learning to love myself didn't come from changing who I was....

IT CAME FROM FINALLY UNDERSTANDING WHO I AM.

And now....this is the work I share with others.

Arisha-Soreiya